feelings

Goodbye and Hello.

December 31, 2017

Bismillah.

it's 2018 😊
hoping that we can become a better person this year.
less hate, more love
less giving up, more determination
less tears, more laughters (but the tears are important too, no? 😉)

2017 was a crazy ride.
so much happened in just one year.
it was overwhelming.
tiring.
so I'm kinda glad it ended.
but who knows what 2018 will have for me?
whatever it is, I am ready; is what I told myself but am I really ready?

never give up on Allah, Husna. 😊
InsyaAllah you'll be fine.

to you who's now a part of my past.
I hope you'll never come back again.
and continue to haunt me, make me suffer.
whatever that feeling was,
with Allah's help, I am finally able to let it go.
and be able to say
goodbye.
goodbye for good.

and hello to new hopes and duas.

*inserts flying money emoji*

December 17, 2017

Assalamualaikum and hulloooooo 🍃


it's been a while hasn't it? weeeeell, semester 2 just started for me so I couldn't find the time to update my blog, therefore, I am truly sorry for that 😅

as you can see from the title; yes, my money is gone. jk. I mean, I splurged too much for the past 2 weeks and here I am proudly telling everyone what I have spent it on. astaghfirullah. 

so, on 9th December, I went to the Big Bad Wolf book fair!! 


it was my first time going so I was hella excited to find what kind of books they're selling and there were soooo many books my eyes kept wandering everywhere I go 😂 I wanted to take sooo many books but I resisted my nafs ahahaha and told myself to snap out of it!!! 
so in the end, I bought theseeeee; 

These are books that I have to fill in creatively.

I am so glad that I found that psychology book.

I hope I'll be able to finish all these. 
I also bought these badgesss.
The Flash (wink wink), Gudetama, Kaneki & Totoro <3
honestly, I don't read a lot but I am trying to change that because I want to improve my writing skills, widen my vocabularies and just get more knowledge in general hehe so pray for me guys!! 

OK now moving on... I also splurged my money on fooooood. 


I went out with my siblings to try out Molten Chocolate Cafe and believe me, whoever is craving for some chocolatey goodness, this place is for youuuu 😍 a bit pricey though but worth it!


and also, Fanan wanted some bingsoo so I accompanied her hahaha and the price has raised (wowerz) but I enjoyed it like always anyway. 

moving on... 
so yesterday I went to Comic Fiesta 2017 at KLCC and I swear it was very memorable to me and it's so sad that I couldn't make it for day 2 today //gross sobbing

the excitement I had before going was just too strong 😂 probably because of the feels I had when I went to cf last year and actually felt like I was somewhere I belonged, full of my interests (anime, games, comics squeeee) and surrounded by people who share the same interest as me, so I was excited to feel it again.

I couldn't be any happier when I had my hand on all the loots I wanted (and some extras I didn't plan to buy) (rip money 😂) and originally, I planned to meet my internet friends (whom I adore just as much as my irl friends) but I only met one, thankfully, it was easy to find him since he was the volunteer 😂 although I was awkward (believe me it took me about 5 rounds of walking between the crowds in front of him trying to figure out how to approach him because I am an awkward bean who doesn't know how to interact much with guys) but heeeeyyy, afterwards he gave me extra nips that he had gotten when he helped out filling in the cf plastic bags!! 😆😆 so all is well. 

and I would like to thank my friend, Afiqah, who accompanied me despite not knowing anything about anime (except for naruto, she said 😂) but having her went through my journey of excitement and finding our my inner geek comforted me in a way ( and I think we bonded a little) but let's do something you like next time, no? 😏

oh ya, I met a lot of cosplayers but I didn't take much pics... I only took a pic with B2 from Nier, Kaneki & two-headed people lmao their cosplay is decent enough, not very perfect to mee but welp. 

Here's one with Kaneki!
anyway, MikuExpo was yesterday and I forgot to livestream itttt but oh well, if Husna was a flower, she would be the Forget-Me-Not 😂 putting that aside, I will definitely go to cf again next year and I want to try cosplaying (just once please give me a chanceeee) or probably become a volunteer hehehe and DEFINITELY MEET MORE OF MY INTERNET FRIENDS (pls) (I love y'all too much) 

shoutout to Atlus for creating Persona 5 (best game of the year) (ngl Nier is good too) and I love love love BNHA and Mystic Messenger soooo so so much. I can die happily and show off all these gooooodddsssss 😤👌👌

Persona 5 fanarts, BNHA fanart & BNHA totebag.

FFXV Prompto milk badge, Onigirishima, Todoroki Shoutocake, Persona 5 set badges, Todoroki heart badge, peach enamel pin, apple drink enamel pin, Milk Yusuke & Akira pins and Persona 5 Takoyaki keychain. 

Mystic Messenger bag, Akira omajuu, Todoroki trump card, P5 & Studio Ghibli lanyard and GSNK stickers.
ok I don't really know who reads my blog lmao... but if you are reading, thank youuu I love youuu 🙆🙆 and see you on the next pooooooost. 

until then! 

heart to heart

happy unbirthday to you!

December 11, 2017

Assalamualaikum and hullooooooooo 🍁

how is everyone? I hope all of you are doing just fine 🙆

last week, a question came into mind; are birthdays important?
some people say yes, some people might say no.
but to me, it's quite important.

it's a day for us to be aware that we're still in this world, living, so we need to keep doing good deeds before our time will come and that we are one step closer to death but I don't think many people think about this. but it is really important.

birthdays are to celebrate our loved ones' existence, to appreciate them coming into our lives and to make sure they realize how blessed we are to have them. honestly, I'd do my all to give people I care about the best birthday they have ever experienced but there are some things that won't allow me to do so like I tend to forget people's birthdays (I'm a bad friend lmao) or those people aren't in my life anymore or I don't have the right amount of money to fulfill the things I've dreamt of doing for them. some people celebrate it by doing a massive birthday party while some people celebrate it with a cake only, but what matters most is the thoughts and the love that have been poured out celebrating it tbh. we should really be thankful for the people around us.

the least I can do is actually wish them a happy birthday or make a long paragraph or something (cuz I'm good at that lol) so I can make them feel appreciated and I want them to know that I appreciate their existence too. at least I get to convey that they're still important to me and that I will always remember them.

are you with me on this boat? x)
or do you have your own thoughts on birthdays?