when i first listened to this song, i loved every second of it, especially the chorus. i love how hopeful the chorus sounded. one of the paragraphs reminded me of someone dear to me, how they were by my side through the times i felt crushed down by the weight of sadness, and stayed by my side despite everything i've done. as i kept reading the lyrics and slowly breathing it in, i realized that the song isn’t solely about love, but also humanity. 

the old Husna believed in love. love was everything to Husna. someone said it was also the theme in most of my old blog posts. don’t be fooled though, i don’t only mean romantic love, but all parts and forms of love. for example, i always get touched whenever i witness first hand that a person is being kind or helping a random stranger. i thought it was a form of love, of portraying how much love they have inside themselves, a way of giving parts of our love to another, even though it is to someone we don't even have a connection with. i believe that we connect through love. i've always believed that. one type of love that i hold so close to my heart is the Divine Love from Him. it kept me going back then, it kept me alive. i was determined to fill myself with so much love so i can keep giving love to others. i thought i was finally healing.

but in the end, i didn't. i've lost hope in love, almost completely. there’s so much love in this azure blue world to be distributed, but why is this world lacking love so much? people are cruel to each other, people hurt each other, people ignore others, even the people they claim to love and care for. people are treated like they don't have feelings by others, people are treated like they are so strong, when in fact, we’re struggling and weak and fragile. i thought that if this world was only full of love, without any negative feelings involved, how would that kind of world continue to spin i wonder? are we able to fight all the evil in the world with love? it seems so far-fetched, yet an idea i seem to hold on hope to.

there’s so much love inside of me, yet why did i fail to deliver it? why is it not being conveyed properly? the supposedly colorful world inside of me has now turned pitch black. it’s sad. when i listened to the song, it just touched me on a personal level, so i engulfed myself in sadness and claimed it. as this sadness is impossible to be shared with another, as this sadness is mine to bear, and this sadness is mine alone. what happened to all the love inside of me? what happened to sharing it to the world? what happened to sharing it to the people so close and so dear to me? i thought to myself, "if there was still one person in this world, who still feels my love, maybe there is hope. maybe there is still hope for me, to be the person i've always wanted to be: a person full of passion to be better, a person who wants to spread warmth and distribute love to others and a person who wants to reach and feel Divine Love again." if there's no more hope for this world, at least, i can make my own world alive again, somehow.