i love my solitude, but i think this is just something i say to lie to myself, dont get me wrong, i enjoy being alone but not for long because then i'll feel lonely. being lonely is nOT fun at all. or maybe, i just dont like carrying expectations alone?

carrying expectations that were put on to you does get quite tiring. to play the jester, to always be there listening to when you deal with other problems of your own, you empathize, and try to give them ideas of how to rid themselves of the emotion of sadness when truly you only have a temporary answer. while the parents expect you to be the president and have the best grades, yelling at you if you failed in a test, or just plain ignoring you, calling you only for chores and to deal with their problems.
but we all have to do things we dont wish to do, no matter what you feel, the expectations that other people place on you are the trust they give you, even if they dont show the trust to you, you can always find it by looking deeper for the truth, expectations are truly what give motives. ☺ at least, this is what i think. i dont have it set in mind, yet.